Oh hello 2am, why are we such close friends?

Sorry about my last confusing and annoyingly self- indulgent post. I went to bed last night all ca-fuffled and what not and then I was lying there, in my bed, with my fishie sheets, and this thought popped into my head.

Screw your head around three times to the right (rightie tightie! lol), and get over yourself.

There are some things in life that are worth getting upset about, and there are a whole lot of things that really don't need to be dwelled on. We all know that. We do! But yet, its SO easy and SUCH a habit to dwell dwell dwell.

Dwelling is okay, as long as you know that it's not? I think that its important to analyze, as much as we tend to over do it. If you glazed over everything, you'd cycle through daily routine without any emotion. Someone said to me yesterday, what would life be without a little pain? And I responded: easy! And he said,

"That is, in fact, quite true, however would you rather live an easy life where you learn nothing from your mistakes and constantly make the same ones over and over, or would you like to learn from your mistakes.

An example?

You burn your hand on a hot element, you feel no pain, therefore you make this mistake many times and burn yourself.... I dunno, I'd take pain over the latter :p"


How now brown cow. Or, how true, how very true. How many times have YOU put your hand back on that hot element though? I bet you quite a few times. We.. us.. society... people... we KNOW things. We do. But, knowing doesn't require action. We know it hurts to stick your hand back on the element, but do we do it anyways? Hell yes! As much as you want to learn from mistakes, you're going to make the same ones over and over again. But the next time you start putting your hand out to touch the element, you might grab an oven mitt, and leave your hand on a little longer.

I think that maybe "mistakes" are really more general than anyone has ever really thought about. You can pretty much generalize anything, and I don't mean like a "life lesson" sort of generalize, I mean a, "There are only three types of story" generalize. I usually don't like to do that, but for the sake of entertainment and perhaps my forever increasing curiosity, I sometimes do little experiments.

So what if there were only three types of mistakes? Ones where you hurt yourself, ones where you hurt someone else, and ones where you both get hurt. (You can be plural, and hurt can mean broken) If no one/ nothing gets hurt / broken, then it wasn't a mistake. I don't think.

"Learn from your mistakes"---> what does that mean!? I always thought it meant DON'T MAKE YOUR MISTAKES AGAIN. Didn't you think that? Isn't that what it means? Maybe. But maybe not. Maybe it really mean modify your approach.

Try something, and when it doesn't work, and something gets broken and you plural gets hurt, sit down, snap some pencils in half, and figure out what you are going to do next time. So maybe the Learn From Your Mistakes has been telling us all the right thing after all! But does anyone else get the feeling that most people think it means don't make your mistakes again?

Hmm?

Oh, by the way. I'm doing an experiment. I feel like the more I sleep, the more tired I get. So... if I give UP sleep, think I'll have more energy? haha There is only one way to find out! This could be very interesting. It might not last very long. Maybe not even past 4 am. haha

So what am I trying to say today? This morning?

There is a BIG giant hot burning scalding scary red inferno element sitting in the middle of Life. That's where all the bad feelings and the broken insides and the smashed vases and silly secrets and confuzzled minds all have big sleepovers every night. Although its scary, its quite intriguing. And if we were afraid of touching it, and burning ourselves, we'd never know what it was like to be happy. Hush Sound Says" Without the sour, the sweet wouldn't taste"

If we were afraid to hurt, we could never feel the totally opposite end of the spectrum. Don't go around seeking pain, and "mistakes" whatever they are. But also don't hesitate to embrace the sleepover invitation. You've got to know how to deal with the burn if you ever want to fully appreciate the healthy. You've gotta heal, after the burn, and you've gotta stay burn free before you try and touch any elements.

Okay. Finishing off...

We are all going to hurt. No matter what. But we are all going to be happy and feel like nothing could ever ever bring us done ever again. And sometimes we'll feel neutral, and not particularly bothered, or excited. Figure out where you are, where you've been and play out a few scenes of where you might be going.

Question everything, and refuse to accept anything just because someone says it's so.

Meet 2am, my buddy. He makes for interesting conversation sometimes.

Okay, I'm not crazy... I don't actually talk to my clock or anything. lol But when it's late, early? (I never know) and when you just let go of day time for a little bit, maybe its the lack of sleep? Or maybe it's something to do with jupiter and the moon aligning with mars and venus's moon. Whatever it is, find the time, or the place, or the person who have to be with, in order to stir up something inside of you.

Don't be idle. But don't forget to rest.

Anything else I can confuse you with today? :)