Do What You Like. Like What You Do.

Today I came to a very unfortunate realization. I have to go to school. There isn't any getting out of it. I have to sit in a desk for six hours a day and copy definitions out of textbooks. Hmm. Okay. I am done being bitter. I love school! Ha, I actually do, I promise. Work is fun! And I LIVE to learn. LIVE. The school environment is just really hard for me. Which is weird, because you wouldn't think so, cause I get high marks. Maybe I just have a really boring semester. I hope thats it. I don't think it was this hard last year? Not work hard. Mentally hard. lol I can't focuss on overheads for six hours. I CAN'T DO IT!!

But. I have to. and I'm over the fact that I don't really want to. I could (and might) continue to complain. But it will no longer take up my life. There are 24 hours in a day. Everyone has to go to school, make the most of it. Stop complaining all day about 1/4 of your time. Take advantage of the repetition to ease your mind so you can fully utilize it out of class! I love school. I promise. I do.

Anyways. Moving on. The way I see "IT" (today's "it" which doesn't have a title yet) okay. The way I see it, it seems the genereal feeling is when you're fifteen, you're five years away from being twenty. But when you're twenty, you're not thiry five. So, why the heck would you wait around until you become something that isn't another!? Am I making sense? When you're fifteen, don't think of yourself as not thirty five, and five years away from being twenty. BE FIFTEEN!! THINK FIFTEEN! Stop enabling yourself until this thing called "the future" picks you up and makes everything better. We all know today was last years future, that's common knowledge! So stop striving for something you can't conquer. You can't saddle time. lol You just can't do it. So get over it. Go to school. haha jk. Well, I'm not just kidding.... okay never mind.

Don't be afraid of commitment, and don't be afraid of change. Don't say something just because someone wants to hear it. You'll get bored of that, and they will too. You can set rules, and make boundaries, just so you both know how far you know you can't go, but secretly want to. Risk sounding ridiculous, or you'll tire them out, and never get to say what you really mean.

I do best when I let my guard down. I am the most me when I'm walking down the street singing and dancing and being the sort of strange girl people learn to love. This is getting hard. Before I get too personal, I'll relate this to a life lesson. haha That's my secret: when something starts eating away at you, turn it into a world wide feast. It's not a a very nice secret. Don't do it. Don't generalize your stories okay? You definitley need to be aware of the general-ness and "life lessons" that are out there, but you're supposed to take these general things and make them specific to you. I need to learn that. I'm slowly learning.

Anyways. Maybe today we can all take some risks and sound ridiculous for the greater good. lol Or maybe for ourselves.

Whatever you do. Learn something, go to school, be you. do what YOU like, and like what you DO.