You Should, sometimes.

Why is it that just when you think you start to have a hold on things that other things start falling apart? Just when everything finally begins to make sense, you lose your mind. Why does it happen to me all the time?

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Happy summer guys! :) I hope the sun is treating you nice.

Do things drive you crazy? Are there some things you know you shouldn't do, but you do anyway? I don't mean illegal like smashing windows or stealing or anything. I mean... just a shouldn't, I can't tell you my example, because I shouldn't have done it. I shower in shouldn'ts. But maybe I don't believe in shouldn't anymore.

Why not?

That's my new thing maybe. I shouldn't do this, why not? well, I know why, and I bet you know why you shouldn't do YOUR shouldn'ts too. But why not? I read a caption on a picture (I know that's so lame haha but sometimes they are good) and it was something along the lines of "don't say sorry for what you feel, it's like saying sorry for being real"

and, I like that. I like it a lot. i think it's 18675883% true. Why SHOULD we be scared of shouldn'ts? hmm? i shouldn't say this.... I shouldn't have hit send on that.

I don't care if you shouldn't. If you don't go after what you want, and you hide behind what you should, you're never going to get as far as you can. Take a risk. Don't hide behind shouldn't. It is easy to say I shouldn't, it's a lot harder to say I did it.

And "I did it" is so much better than "Oh, well, I shouldn't"

You have to make yourself happy. You have to make other people happy too, that is important. I put other people before me all the time, and it's not bad, not all the time. Just don't forget about yourself, you matter just as much as all those guys you put before you. okay? Promise. You matter.

So. Life lesson today is get rid of the shouldn'ts. Not all of them. Some things you really just shouldn't do. And you and I both know that, I'm not always being painfully literal. You shouldn't tell your mom she has failed you as a parent if she won't drive you to your friends house, even if you feel like she has. I'm not talking about those kinds of shouldn'ts, I'm talking about the things you think about saying, and then get scared too.

the: "I've never been in love before" 's. and.... woah, I mean I guess you have no way of knowing what just happened. But I almost backspaced that. Because in my head I thought "Well, I shouldn't."

Don't go crazy. But don't let the shouldn'ts drive you nuts. Sometimes you should.

Don't say sorry for being real, because it's like saying sorry for being real.

And realness is what I think we should all be striving for. No robots, right? You know that.

Happy July 16th.

Don't think too far ahead, you'll ruin the present if you focus on the future. Shouldn'ts are all about consequence. But if you're terrified of consequence, you're scared of life. If you're scared of living? You've gotta..... do something about that.

So I guess the life lesson is, find out why you feel like you shouldn't. Know consequence, but don't be scared of it. Everything has consequences. But maybe think about it like every action has a reaction right? blah blah blah we've all heard that before. But really, consequences are reactions to actions. If you don't take action, there will be no reaction.

If there is no reaction? there's no life.

Everything is reacting to something. You can't stop it. No stopping consequence, no stopping feeling. Some things just are, even if they shouldn't be.

sleep tight everyone, I'm going upstairs.