To be continued

Hey. < have you ever noticed how periods make you seem pissed? (lol. ha.) I don't like them. lol

I'm not pissed. Have I talked about the word "hate" yet? Proably not, since it's been six years since I've actually said anything. We had this presentation at our school, a long time ago, and this woman came in to speak to us about... life? She is a holocaust survivor and she told us about her experiences and such. And she talked about hate.

I used to say hate all the time. ughhh guys I HATE when you do that, gross.... I HATE bugs. Really, I said hate, a lot.

After this presentation... I don't say hate anymore. (okay... I do, but it's usually followed by a "WAIT! I don't say hate anymore")

I can't really explain what this woman said. But, she cried, in front of an entire gym filled with stupid high school kids. And not a single stupid highschool kid was laughing, or making a stupid joke. Every single stupid highschool kid sitting in a stupid plastic chair was watching this woman, and every single one of us was FEELING. This woman, I'm terrible I don't remember her name, but this woman was explaing hate to us. I can't do what she did, but if you heard her talk about hate, you would feel the little squirmish feeling I get every time I say it. Everytime I say it I can see her, on stage, crying, and I can see the gym, and all the kids, and I can hear the quiet-ness that the gym had.

I want to make people feel like she did. Like... how she made the kids feel, I don't want people to go through what she did.

Do you ever feel like everything was better before? Bike's were way nicer, microphones were big and silver and wicked. And if we go way back.... us girls got to wear ridiculous dresses and carry little umbrellas around and guys had to wear cute little jackets? And it was a big deal if someone wanted to hold your hand? Does anyone else miss that? Maybe you can't technically miss anything you've never had, but, I do. I miss a lot of things I've never had.

I wish I could time travel.

hahahah on the literacy test this year one of the questions was asking us what out ideal career would be. And I wrote about being a time traveler, really, I did.