Things in your life, will go right. Things in everyone's life will go wrong. But who decides what's right, and who gets to say what's wrong? Maybe my problem is I think that everything just happens. I don't know right from wrong anymore. Events are events, feelings are feelings. I think I'm becoming more and more of an observer every day. De-humanizing myself to the most extreme way possible, trying to get rid of all feeling, but instead just collecting mass emotion.
You feel swamped? You feel hollow. Robots feel it all.
I'm not a robot.
I know how to feel. Robots don't feel. Robots see. Robots see it all. And document it, and use it later.
I don't know if it's better to watch, and remember, or if it's better to experience, and forget? I know watching and forgetting is useless, but maybe experiencing and remembering is best. Best better bestest.
Who needs sense.
Decisions are hard, and change is hard. But decisions are necessary and change is un-avoidable. I still haven't forgotten that line I read a while ago some where talking about not feeling afraid of things that will take a long time to happen. Because the time will pass anyways. Because it's so so true. Don't use time as an excuse, you're being ridiculous.
I think, if we'd all do what makes us happy, and not always what we think is right and not always what we think is easy, then we could live so much better. You lose so much when you do things because you think you should. I don't really believe in obligation, not completely. Everything should be choice, because then every action is an active thought. The more actively we think, the more sense our actions will make. If we constantly cut our thinking off we're all going to explode into piles of ash.
Instead of getting lost, to avoid feeling like someone is holding a pillow over your head. Do something. Try something. Change something. Make a decision. Try?
I'll get back to you.
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