gurgle. swish. don't swallow; spit.

My aunt is my dentist, everyone thinks that's weird. haha. So, I've come to the conclusion I am the most indecisive person on the planet. But, cutting myself a little slack, maybe that means I'm the BEST pros and cons person out there. I'm also unfortunately disabled in the department of taking my own advice. I severely lack any of that skill. Which is quite unfortunate. Oh, wondering about the whole "gurgle. swish. don't swallow; spit"? it's today's life lesson. It doesn't have anything to do with dental hygiene. You can think (gurgle) and edit (swish) anything you want. But don't keep anything inside (swallow) express it (spit). How much more can I emphasize this point? Do you ever think about something you wish you said in a previous conversation? You can picture everything about the situation, and you replay yourself saying what you wish you had over and over again. Of course, I know it's rare you ever come up with the things you want to say in the moment. It's usually the night after when you're going to bed still thinking about it. But still, there are a few times where you have something ready, but you swallow it. Cause you're scared. I get scared a lot, I'm the first to admit it. Maybe I'm just rambling about this so I can get it into my own head. Sometimes you want someone to say that perfect line you've written for them so you can respond with your late-night-scripted perfect answer. Conversations aren't perfect. That's what makes them so interesting and fun to be involved with. Tomorrow I'm going to wake up and go and write my history exam. haha. and all day I'm going to spit. I won't swallow a single thing. I'll let you know how it goes. Gah. Alright, focusing. I'm have trouble relating this to a general life lesson. Today, MY life lesson is to suck it up and spit. You can try it if you want, but it might possibly cause more damage than it helps a situation. But when you spend a lot of time swallowing, especially in the presence of the same specific people, or person...., you suddenly have a lot of stuff to spit, and a lot less room to swallow. So... try and find the balance between swallowing and spitting. Don't go around telling people you hate their sweaters, but if you really love them, let them know. There.