23 Contradictions and Two Facts

I wonder frequently if people have patterns. If you like this, you'll like that. You know? I'm just here to tell you: they don't. And it's awesome. It makes everything so much more exciting. I don't like to guess, I like to know. That's why I look for patterns. I don't really like surprises either. But they are probably better for me, anticipation is a killer.

I love flowers. But I hate bouquets. I hate them. They are so ugly. Okay, not all of them. I like little bouquets. Cute ones, where the colours go all nice. But huge arrangements of floral disaster make me want fold clothes for a living. But I love flowers.

I am scared of bugs. They make me shiver.

I love playing in the rain. I love it. I'm terrified of thunder. If I saw a bug in a thunder storm I might die. lol Kidding, but you get it.

I love to swim. But deep water freaks me out, a lot.

I can only sleep when it's pitch black. It doesn't really get dark in my room here in France so I have to sleep with one of those beautiful sleeping masks. I got mine off the airplane. lol Yet strangely enough: I'm terrified of the dark.

See where I'm going? If you see any pattern, let me know. I'm interested. I could continue for a long time. I'm not going to list forever though. I cut my lip today. I'm not even going to tell you what happend because it was so weird. lol It bled for a long time.

Anyways. I like patterns. I like figuring people out. But patterns are hard to find. Over time you put the pieces of your puzzle together, and by the end, once you have enough pieces, you see the picture. The pattern makes sense, even though every peice on it's own didn't mean much.

But don't throw away the pieces, because then you'll never finish the puzzle. And without a finished puzzle, you don't know someone. So keep the pieces, finish the puzzle, and understand someone. :)

That's all? I'm avoiding doing my homework right now....

I feel like I didn't really say anything. Let me try again.

Life Lesson For Today

People are complicated. You don't usually ask a person their favourite movie and after they answer you know their favourite colour smartie and shoe size. It doesn't work like that. Every day you're with someone, or you talk to someone, or you skype someone, haha, you learn something. Every single time. I promise. It's your job to remember what you learn. Once you start remembering, things start to make sense. Once you remember, you can predict. But you never know. Relying on remembering doesn't work. There's a lot of guessing involved no matter what. And that's what makes people so fun. It's not knowing exactly what they are going to say to you tomorrow over breakfast that makes you want to eat breakfast tomorrow. It's about growing together over time. Getting to know someone isn't about making them follow a program in your head. They don't do some things and hate others. It's about experimenting, and learning, and making memories.

So, get to know someone. Don't judge them, or categorize them and place them into a file in your brain. Find out if they like sand but hate deserts. Because underneath all the facts and contradictions there is a person. And that person is great, promise.